Gary Barlow - My Take
the fact even Gary dislikes Nigel says a lot. Gary was of course treated like a king compared to the rest of the boys and Gary isn’t comfortable talking to him. The people who are sticking up for Nigel because he put the boys together, yeah that’s the only thing i’m happy he did, but treating like shit and making them act as if they owe him constantly? Unfair.
that asshole scarred the five of them in different ways. I know I will never be able to know exactly how things were between them back then, but the fact that they still get nervous when he’s mentioned says a lot (we can see it in interviews through the years) they are grown men and the memory of this man makes them uncomfortable, ok? Maybe he did what he thought he had to do to keep this band together up and running but that doesn’t justify the mental toll it took from them all and how much he toyed with their inexperience and insecurities. I mean, how can you play with people like that, telling them and convincing them that they are replaceable? After Take That Howard tried to kill himself himself, Mark became an alcoholic, Jason struggled with the insecurities that scarred him to this day and Rob was becoming a fucking mess under this guy’s watch, alright? How can you justify someone who exploited those insecurities “just to keep them in shape”. Ugh. People sticking up for this asshole piss me the fuck off.
An open letter to Jason Orange
Or can I call you Jay? I’m not sure you remember but I met you on a bench once. And it was the best moment of my whole life. You were the loveliest man in the world to me and I’ll treasure that now more than ever. And I already treasured it a lot.
I don’t think you ever realised how valued and loved you were as a part of Take That. When I first became a fan of the band, I have to admit you weren’t the first to catch my attention. But then I started to love Take That. Properly love you.
And I noticed you. Your quick quips and your extraordinary dancing. Your shyness and your determination and your philosophical ways. We all loved listening to your thought process Jason. And your voice in those songs. Your laugh and the gentle, considered lilt of your voice in interviews.
Your friendship with the boys was adored, still is. The hugs and the banter and the genuine love between you guys from years of working together. In amongst the heartbreak, I’m glad to know you guys will always be friends. That this isn’t a thing of spite or out of hate, but out of necessity to be away from the limelight. It soothes the ache but a fraction, but it’s a fraction I’m very thankful for.
Jason Orange, you are a lovely man. Simply and amazingly lovely. You are kind and you are funny and you are smart and brilliant and I so wish you know all this. That you know how much you mean to so many of us and how much we are going to miss you. I have so many happy memories because of you. Stripy trousers, guitar singsongs, band banter giggles, every time you smiled, the way you danced like you had springs on your feet.
I’m so proud of you Jason, of being brave enough to sing Wooden Boat, bare foot, on the Beautiful World Tour. Of being even more involved with The Circus Tour. That tour, personally for me, and you said yourself to me on that bench, can never be topped.
Your last performance with the boys was at the Olympics, when you Jason Orange, danced like an idiot in front of two billion people to pull attention away from your grieving friend. You are magnificent.
Take That mean the world to me. I can never express how much I love you, not properly but I try. I go to shows and I scream and sing and beam like the sun is breaking across my face. I’ll miss you being there so much. I’m so glad I saw you as many times as I have.
You, and the boys, helped me in ways I wanted to tell you but hope you understood. I don’t know you, but I am extraordinary proud of you. You go live your life the way you need to.
Thanks for everything. All of the love in the world.
yo but chicago fire has an almost entirely male cast, with the exception of two women, and out of all of those viable options they choose to kill off a female?? who happens to be the only gay character on the show?? nah thanks
aside from the fact that Shay was one of my two favorite characters so this is particularly painful for me as a viewer, what missyperegryn wrote really worries me. The way I see it, they could’ve killed Mills for example and still get a lot of angst and a lot of development in different characters. They could’ve killed a lot of characters, even though I know some of them are what the writers consider to be the “stong” ones (something I will never understand cause Dawson and Casey are so fucking boring but what the hell do I know, I’m not a writer) but they decided to kill the only queer character which I wouldn’t have a problem with if I felt, at some point, that her arc was leading her that way. We’ve seen her in two different seasons struggling in so many ways and in such different aspects, she had ambitions in life, she had a big road ahead of her, she was pivotal in so many ways and such a rich character to actually develop. Her death, to me, makes no sense and I hate to think that the only reason it happened was so that they could show Dawson and Kelly be all angsty and sad. That’s what pisses me off. Shay had so much potential, her story was not even close to be over, she could’ve been such an amazing iconic character is the CF/CPD franchise and they decided to kill her in the most unnecessary and meaningless way, really.
I am so frustrated with all of this. Ugh.
(I originally wrote this for my blog, but decided to post this on tumblr as well. Happy reading.)
The other day, the new series of Doctor Who aired on the BBC and in cinemas across the world. I would be lying if I said I didn’t go into the episode without any reservations whatsoever, but I did try my best to keep an open mind.
There were many eye rolls to be had. At times I wanted to punch the screen. And yet other times I wanted to punch something else, like the screenwriter himself perhaps.
Obligatory spoiler warning: do not read on if you haven’t watched the episode yet or care about being spoilered. Sorry, this is fairly long (if only I could write essays this extensive…)
That moment when a showrunner has so ruined a fandom for you, that you don’t even bother to watch the premiere even though you love Peter Capaldi. Simply because you’re tired of disappointment. And frustration. And getting to the end of each episode and wondering why you wasted your time watching it.
My heart just isn’t in it anymore. And that’s sad, because I’ve watched it since I was five. I’ll always love what DW was, but I’m tired of what it IS now. And at this point, I think I’m just done. :(
it’s true that comic fans react passionately to things but can you blame us i mean we are constantly living in fear that our favorite character can die or mutate into a giant tentacle monster
or, you know, be played by ana pakin or jennifer lawrence.
People on tumblr acting like an actor can’t decline a fucking acting job. They can accept that the roles of Moses and Rhamses will be done by white actors (One being artificially tanned to look more Egyptian), but they will lose their shit over Annie being portrayed as a young black girl in New York city in 2014. Sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up.
Despite what anyone says about the X-Men movies, Ian McKellen and Patrick Stewart are the wisest casting choices I’ve seen in film. Two grand Shakespearean actors on opposing sides of the chessboard with charisma that could shatter mountains.
Not sure wether my ask came through but why was Jason not in some of the group pictures?
Oh, it didn’t ^^U And I don’t know really, not for a fact. But on my Take, Gary talks about how much Jason and Nigel used to argue about pretty much everything, and he tells a story about how Nigel once wanted to leave Jason outside of the band, sometimes taking them to gigs or photoshoots without Jason. He’s not too specific about it or anything, but in my head, it’s not really that far-fetched to assume that something like that happened backstage in the group pictures from around that time where Jason’s not there.
so what youre saying is that you support cis people? after all theyve done to oppress you as a "queer" individual?
Yes. I do support cis people. Just in the same way that I would support anyone else. If you are born cis, you cannot help that fact. You aren’t born into hatred. Being cis isn’t wrong. At all.
Have I been oppressed by cishet individuals? Absolutely. I’ve had the shit beat out of me all through high school because of my sexuality. I’ve been beaten, abused, held down, denied employment, and raped for who I am. By cisgendered, heterosexual people. But that doesn’t change the fact that my father is cis. My mother is, too. My friends are. My classmates. My roommate. My girlfriend, for fuck’s sake, is cis.
Just because I have been wronged by some, does not give me the right to hate all. I hate some. Not, by any means, all.
I hate those that have wronged me as individuals. As specific people, who have done specific wrong to me. My rapist was cisgendered. But, so is my eight-year-old niece.
In short, Anon, yes. I absolutely support cis persons. Why? Because being born with uncontrollable traits is not grounds for hatred, under any circumstances.
Two of the three boys that beat the shit out of me in high school, consistently, were black. Does that give me the right to hate all black men? Absolutely not. Do you see where I’m going with this, Anon?
No matter the circumstances, hating an entire group of people based on immutable traits is wrong. When you do harbor these prejudices, you are no better than those you claim to be fighting.
Did i just read something rational on Tumblr. Doesn’t this violate some law of nature?
Then wipe him and start over.
But no, I want to talk about this. That look of fear and desperation he has. He knows what’s coming, and he knows he can’t stop it. He knows he’s on to something, and he is so confused. His face is like a child’s, he doesn’t know what’s going on, and it scares him. He’s used to not knowing the full information, but this is the first time he is conscious of it. And he knows the pain he’s about to go through. That look is not the look of a villain. It’s the look of a boy asking for help, and the only person who can give it to him is the person he’s going to have to kill.
That’s because Bucky Barnes was never a fucking villain. He was a tool that was used against his will. He had the power to make decisions stripped away from him. He did not choose this, nor would he have ever chosen this. Both in the comics and MCU.
I get so pissed off when people call him a villain and compare him to Loki because NO SHUT UP YOU;RE FUCKING WRONG.
Loki chose his path. Loki chose to throw a cosmic level temper tantrum and Loki chose to continue on his course. Bucky was NEVER EVER give then option to choose for himself. Any time his programming cracked, any time he fought or questioned his orders and his superior officers, he was put in stasis, had his memory completely wiped and was reprogrammed to ensure his mindless obedience.
"Project: Winter Soldier
Scientific Analysis, 7 June 1957
A comprehensive mental evaluation of Codename: Winter Soldier was conducted over the course of the past week. Diagnoses are varied, but most in Dept. X Science Team believe that his mental state is becoming unstable. In the three years since he was awakened from stasis, it appears his mind is seeking to fill in the holes in his memory or possibly rebelling against the implanted programming he received originally. The subject has recently begun to exhibit more than usual curiosity, even to the point of questioning orders from superiors, and once in the past month, he attacked a fellow operative, nearly killing him. On interrogation, he could not explain his actions.
One theory is that just as he has reflex-memories which allow him to be such an effective operative, he may also have a deeply buried sense of who he was, or at least of what kind of person he was. As such, this deeply buried idea may be causing him mental stress and triggering turmoil in his thoughts. Another theory, which is more disturbing, is that he may actually be remembering his previous life, though in small pieces only. It is therefore our recommendation that Codename: Winter Soldier be kept in stasis between missions, and that he undergo Mental Implantation at every awakening. We believe this will correct his instability issues, so he can continue to be of use to Department X.”
- Captain America Vol. 5 #11
Mikhail: ”<You forget your place, Winter Soldier. Comrade Karpov will hear of this!>”
Bucky: ”THEN LET HIM!”
Bucky: ”That was the first time they saw the cracks in their conditioning, so I was ‘put away’ between missions like Christmas decorations stashed in the attic. I continued as their killing machine and the real me was kept locked in my head for decades… Until Cap fixed me. And all the horrors I committed came rushing back like a tsunami. I might have put a bullet in my brain to quiet the ghosts… if not for Natasha.”
- Captain America & Bucky #624
Furthermore, he is remorseful for the things he was FORCED to do as the Winter Soldier. It haunts him and he feel GUILTY for everything as he remembers them.
This is not a villain. This was never a villain. James Buchanan “Bucky” Barnes, aka The Winter Soldier, is not a villain. He is the slave of a villain, used, abused and used some more and then put in a glass tube to sleep until hey need him to kill things again.
And yes, the comic parallel DOES matter. Sebastian Stan read ALL the comics to get into character and Ed Brubaker oversaw the production of CA:TWS. It’s fucking relevent as shit. Because no matter if we’re talking about MCU or the comics, Bucky Barnes was still scooped out of a body of water by his ENEMIES, fitted with a cybernetic arm to replace the one he lost, brainwashed and forced to do someone else’s dirty work. And the minute he questioned his orders, they started all over again.
This is not a villain. It’s a slave. And I will never stop screaming about this.
This. All of this. A million times this.
Dude, I agree with everything here and it’s worth a read.
But I’m a little confused about other stuff. I mean i don’t wanna be plain, but people calling Bucky a villain did not pay attention to anything. Either they didn’t watch the same movie or never in their lives read any of the books where Bucky is an intricate part of the story.
Like… how? how do you call a person that’s being used as a fucking tool and abused, that’s clearly feeling remorse and having second thoughts by the end of the movie because somewhere in his violated mind he wants to believe he is a different person with actual free will, how do you call this person an actual villain? I think if you do, you were watching a different channel or something.
And, more to the point, why in the fucking world would you compare Bucky to Loki? Like… why? Loki does everything he does because he wants to do it. I’m a fucking Loki fan, but I will not sit here and say that he is forced to do these things because he’s a victim. No. He is not. Loki is a character with so many layers, but a character that ultimately does everything he does because he wants to do these things. No matter his past or the things in his life that lead him to be the way he is, he has a choice and he is not being forced to do shit. Bucky is forced, Bucky is abused constantly to become the perfect weapon. How and why would you even compare these characters? Agh.
Gary Barlow - Since I Saw You Last (official video)
Love, love, love the video. It’s simple, it’s so him and it’s exactly that, just him, telling his story, letting out old demons. I absolutely adore the simplicity of the video. Love it.
Now, can I just say that I understand that Gary is a very PC artist, but I hate that they censored the entire “go fuck yourselves” sentence? Dude, the original has the “fuck” censored, isn’t that enough? I thought it was such a powerful part of the song. It bothers me, alright? I know it’s all about pc and vevo and what not, but it ends up leaving me with this horrible feeling of a lackness of balls. Although I know that’s not the case, alright? Don’t kill me. It’s just my feeling.