(I originally wrote this for my blog, but decided to post this on tumblr as well. Happy reading.)
The other day, the new series of Doctor Who aired on the BBC and in cinemas across the world. I would be lying if I said I didn’t go into the episode without any reservations whatsoever, but I did try my best to keep an open mind.
There were many eye rolls to be had. At times I wanted to punch the screen. And yet other times I wanted to punch something else, like the screenwriter himself perhaps.
Obligatory spoiler warning: do not read on if you haven’t watched the episode yet or care about being spoilered. Sorry, this is fairly long (if only I could write essays this extensive…)
That moment when a showrunner has so ruined a fandom for you, that you don’t even bother to watch the premiere even though you love Peter Capaldi. Simply because you’re tired of disappointment. And frustration. And getting to the end of each episode and wondering why you wasted your time watching it.
My heart just isn’t in it anymore. And that’s sad, because I’ve watched it since I was five. I’ll always love what DW was, but I’m tired of what it IS now. And at this point, I think I’m just done. :(
it’s true that comic fans react passionately to things but can you blame us i mean we are constantly living in fear that our favorite character can die or mutate into a giant tentacle monster
or, you know, be played by ana pakin or jennifer lawrence.
People on tumblr acting like an actor can’t decline a fucking acting job. They can accept that the roles of Moses and Rhamses will be done by white actors (One being artificially tanned to look more Egyptian), but they will lose their shit over Annie being portrayed as a young black girl in New York city in 2014. Sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up.
Despite what anyone says about the X-Men movies, Ian McKellen and Patrick Stewart are the wisest casting choices I’ve seen in film. Two grand Shakespearean actors on opposing sides of the chessboard with charisma that could shatter mountains.
Not sure wether my ask came through but why was Jason not in some of the group pictures?
Oh, it didn’t ^^U And I don’t know really, not for a fact. But on my Take, Gary talks about how much Jason and Nigel used to argue about pretty much everything, and he tells a story about how Nigel once wanted to leave Jason outside of the band, sometimes taking them to gigs or photoshoots without Jason. He’s not too specific about it or anything, but in my head, it’s not really that far-fetched to assume that something like that happened backstage in the group pictures from around that time where Jason’s not there.
so what youre saying is that you support cis people? after all theyve done to oppress you as a "queer" individual?
Yes. I do support cis people. Just in the same way that I would support anyone else. If you are born cis, you cannot help that fact. You aren’t born into hatred. Being cis isn’t wrong. At all.
Have I been oppressed by cishet individuals? Absolutely. I’ve had the shit beat out of me all through high school because of my sexuality. I’ve been beaten, abused, held down, denied employment, and raped for who I am. By cisgendered, heterosexual people. But that doesn’t change the fact that my father is cis. My mother is, too. My friends are. My classmates. My roommate. My girlfriend, for fuck’s sake, is cis.
Just because I have been wronged by some, does not give me the right to hate all. I hate some. Not, by any means, all.
I hate those that have wronged me as individuals. As specific people, who have done specific wrong to me. My rapist was cisgendered. But, so is my eight-year-old niece.
In short, Anon, yes. I absolutely support cis persons. Why? Because being born with uncontrollable traits is not grounds for hatred, under any circumstances.
Two of the three boys that beat the shit out of me in high school, consistently, were black. Does that give me the right to hate all black men? Absolutely not. Do you see where I’m going with this, Anon?
No matter the circumstances, hating an entire group of people based on immutable traits is wrong. When you do harbor these prejudices, you are no better than those you claim to be fighting.
Did i just read something rational on Tumblr. Doesn’t this violate some law of nature?
Then wipe him and start over.
But no, I want to talk about this. That look of fear and desperation he has. He knows what’s coming, and he knows he can’t stop it. He knows he’s on to something, and he is so confused. His face is like a child’s, he doesn’t know what’s going on, and it scares him. He’s used to not knowing the full information, but this is the first time he is conscious of it. And he knows the pain he’s about to go through. That look is not the look of a villain. It’s the look of a boy asking for help, and the only person who can give it to him is the person he’s going to have to kill.
That’s because Bucky Barnes was never a fucking villain. He was a tool that was used against his will. He had the power to make decisions stripped away from him. He did not choose this, nor would he have ever chosen this. Both in the comics and MCU.
I get so pissed off when people call him a villain and compare him to Loki because NO SHUT UP YOU;RE FUCKING WRONG.
Loki chose his path. Loki chose to throw a cosmic level temper tantrum and Loki chose to continue on his course. Bucky was NEVER EVER give then option to choose for himself. Any time his programming cracked, any time he fought or questioned his orders and his superior officers, he was put in stasis, had his memory completely wiped and was reprogrammed to ensure his mindless obedience.
"Project: Winter Soldier
Scientific Analysis, 7 June 1957
A comprehensive mental evaluation of Codename: Winter Soldier was conducted over the course of the past week. Diagnoses are varied, but most in Dept. X Science Team believe that his mental state is becoming unstable. In the three years since he was awakened from stasis, it appears his mind is seeking to fill in the holes in his memory or possibly rebelling against the implanted programming he received originally. The subject has recently begun to exhibit more than usual curiosity, even to the point of questioning orders from superiors, and once in the past month, he attacked a fellow operative, nearly killing him. On interrogation, he could not explain his actions.
One theory is that just as he has reflex-memories which allow him to be such an effective operative, he may also have a deeply buried sense of who he was, or at least of what kind of person he was. As such, this deeply buried idea may be causing him mental stress and triggering turmoil in his thoughts. Another theory, which is more disturbing, is that he may actually be remembering his previous life, though in small pieces only. It is therefore our recommendation that Codename: Winter Soldier be kept in stasis between missions, and that he undergo Mental Implantation at every awakening. We believe this will correct his instability issues, so he can continue to be of use to Department X.”
- Captain America Vol. 5 #11
Mikhail: ”<You forget your place, Winter Soldier. Comrade Karpov will hear of this!>”
Bucky: ”THEN LET HIM!”
Bucky: ”That was the first time they saw the cracks in their conditioning, so I was ‘put away’ between missions like Christmas decorations stashed in the attic. I continued as their killing machine and the real me was kept locked in my head for decades… Until Cap fixed me. And all the horrors I committed came rushing back like a tsunami. I might have put a bullet in my brain to quiet the ghosts… if not for Natasha.”
- Captain America & Bucky #624
Furthermore, he is remorseful for the things he was FORCED to do as the Winter Soldier. It haunts him and he feel GUILTY for everything as he remembers them.
This is not a villain. This was never a villain. James Buchanan “Bucky” Barnes, aka The Winter Soldier, is not a villain. He is the slave of a villain, used, abused and used some more and then put in a glass tube to sleep until hey need him to kill things again.
And yes, the comic parallel DOES matter. Sebastian Stan read ALL the comics to get into character and Ed Brubaker oversaw the production of CA:TWS. It’s fucking relevent as shit. Because no matter if we’re talking about MCU or the comics, Bucky Barnes was still scooped out of a body of water by his ENEMIES, fitted with a cybernetic arm to replace the one he lost, brainwashed and forced to do someone else’s dirty work. And the minute he questioned his orders, they started all over again.
This is not a villain. It’s a slave. And I will never stop screaming about this.
This. All of this. A million times this.
Dude, I agree with everything here and it’s worth a read.
But I’m a little confused about other stuff. I mean i don’t wanna be plain, but people calling Bucky a villain did not pay attention to anything. Either they didn’t watch the same movie or never in their lives read any of the books where Bucky is an intricate part of the story.
Like… how? how do you call a person that’s being used as a fucking tool and abused, that’s clearly feeling remorse and having second thoughts by the end of the movie because somewhere in his violated mind he wants to believe he is a different person with actual free will, how do you call this person an actual villain? I think if you do, you were watching a different channel or something.
And, more to the point, why in the fucking world would you compare Bucky to Loki? Like… why? Loki does everything he does because he wants to do it. I’m a fucking Loki fan, but I will not sit here and say that he is forced to do these things because he’s a victim. No. He is not. Loki is a character with so many layers, but a character that ultimately does everything he does because he wants to do these things. No matter his past or the things in his life that lead him to be the way he is, he has a choice and he is not being forced to do shit. Bucky is forced, Bucky is abused constantly to become the perfect weapon. How and why would you even compare these characters? Agh.
Gary Barlow - Since I Saw You Last (official video)
Love, love, love the video. It’s simple, it’s so him and it’s exactly that, just him, telling his story, letting out old demons. I absolutely adore the simplicity of the video. Love it.
Now, can I just say that I understand that Gary is a very PC artist, but I hate that they censored the entire “go fuck yourselves” sentence? Dude, the original has the “fuck” censored, isn’t that enough? I thought it was such a powerful part of the song. It bothers me, alright? I know it’s all about pc and vevo and what not, but it ends up leaving me with this horrible feeling of a lackness of balls. Although I know that’s not the case, alright? Don’t kill me. It’s just my feeling.
So, this is the thing for me: I’m really happy with this. I do love TT5, I absolutely love them being back together the five of them again, and (even though my favorite TT albums are BW and The Circus) I was over the fucking moon about progress and progressed and the tour and fucking life. BUT before that happened, Rob was in some kind of a funk, personally and artistically, he’d said so and if you were paying attention you could tell. So this? This is extremely positive for me. Because Take That helped him, being friends with the boys again helped him, being artistically involved with the guys helped him; and this is a perfect evidence of how much. He’s enjoying being Robbie again, his solo career, he’s shining, he’s comfortable being Robbie fucking Williams again and that is fucking beautiful.
So, I’ll take TT4, I’ll love the new album and I’ll wait for the moment when they decide that is time for being TT5 again.
And yes, I will miss Robbie + the boys all over the fucking place, and interviews and videos and aosdijasodija but I’ll get over it. This makes me happy (:
THIS IS A POSITIVE THING AND IF I HAVE TO READ TO ONE MORE TT FAN CALL ROBBIE A SELFISH ASSHOLE I WILL GO APESHIT.
Sorry. Rant over.